VI

There’s a studio in Kozarac I return to, every so often, where I imagine a world not being held captive by a notion of body not being loved.


You can find readings there too.



V


Caught in a dance some people refer to as poesis, I found myself in an undetected, fragile pursuit of something Anne Carson refers to as Letters, [that] made one day different from another, made if into sun.


It carries a private collection of commentaries on form and world-making.


Or in reference to Novalis (1772–1801) and his many pursuits of Trauerarbeit: In relation to the beloved and lost, I am what world is to body, too.


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By my tears, Roland Barthes once wrote, I tell a story, I produce a myth of grief, and henceforth I adjust myself to it.

Short blinding passages are all it takes. 


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After having seen the beloved, as Novalis puts it, in thousand images, I was left to watch the year repeat its days.



Here's a note to keep working on:

- There's no clarity in pain.



IV

Loco, TI

Underlined in Carson's Glass Essay:


p.8 

‚Emily (Brontë) continued to brush into carpet the question,


Why cast the world away.
For someone hooked up to Thou,

the world may have seemed a kind of half-finished sentence.’


p.9

‚She didn’t have friends, children, sex, religion, marriage, success, 

or a fear of death.’

 

‚Yet her poetry from beginning to end is concerned with prisons, 

vaults, cages, bars, cubs, bits, bolts, fetters,

locked windows, narrow frames, aching walls.’


p.36

‚Emily Brontë was good at cursing.


Falsity and bad love and the deadly pain of alteration are

constant topics in her verse.’


‚There go, Deceiver, go!‘


‚Unconquered in my soul the Tyrant rules me still –

Life bows to my control, but Love I cannot kill!’


p. 38

‚As if anger could be a kind of vocation for some women.'


‚The vocation of anger is not mine.

I know my source.’


p.39

‚One way to put off loneliness is to interpose God.

Emily had a relationshop on this level with someone she 

calls Thou.’


‚Thou and Emily influence one another in the darkness, 

playing near and far at once.’


‚She talks about a sweetness that ‚proved us one‘.‘


p.42

‚My soul waiteth on Thou more than they that watch for the morning,‘


‚I like to believe that for her the act of watching provided a shelter,

that her collusion with Thou gave ease to her desire:’


‚But for myself I do not believe this, I am not quenched –
with Thou or without Thou I find no shelter.‘